Read “You’re Tougher Than You Think” for the background.
Spirit Card Messages for today:
“There’s something out of balance in your life. Correct it.”
“You’re too fragmented. Get grounded”
Every day, I pick two cards. Today, I feel as though the second one explains the first one. After reading the first one, I instantly thought about the fact that I had not yet scheduled my flu shot! Well, I did schedule and then I cancelled it because something came up with my grandchildren. And then, I cancelled my dentist appointment because of a similar issue. Now, I’m going to tell you that it takes basically nothing to get me to cancel these appointments. I’m not a fan of either.
But, that’s not really the message today. The message is that my life is out of balance because I am too fragmented.
Fragmented? How can that be? I have my routines:
- Morning coffee while I check for new Facebook posts.
- Second cup while I play a little Toy Blast on my IPad.
- Then it’s time to review the news. This takes longer these days because I have to figure out if what I’m reading is fake or not.
- That usually takes me into internet searches which sometimes leads me to Amazon to see if there are any deals today on Prime. One day, that lead me to buying a room air purifier hoping that would take care of my itchy eye situation.
- And then, there’s Pinterest where I can definitely see my fragmentation. Pins come up that deal with all things I’ve previously shown an interest in: soup recipes, making pots out of concrete, refinishing old furniture, and toddler craft projects.
Fragmented? Not me!
So How Does One Become Un-fragmented In Today’s World?
I actually just told my sister, last week, that I feel as though the older I get the faster days fly by. And, at the end of the day, I look back and can’t actually say that I did anything big or important. In fact, my daughter will ask “What are you doing today?” and I reply “I have an appointment to get my hair cut.” and she responds, “You can only do one thing a day?”
No. Yes. I don’t know. It just seems as though the other things that fill the day aren’t worth mentioning; you know, like detailing the scheduled IPad time.
But there was one day that I actually made a list of things that needed to be accomplished; that one day where I could actually say that I was not fragmented. I had listed 8 things that needed to be worked on. Then I gave each thing one hour of my time. By the end of the day, some things were actually done. I’d set a timer! One hour per task. It was actually fun.
This Year’s Challenge
I proved to myself that I could fill my day with meaningful tasks, so can I do it for more than a day?
The first step is to probably figure out what it is that I want to accomplish, not just today, but maybe this week, this month, this year.
If I am to put balance back into my life, it would need a plan. I’ve been retired for more than 8 years and I have yet to settle on a plan for what I want to accomplish. I’ve let other people or situations lead me down whatever path. I don’t want to reach the end of my journey only to be asked “What did you do with your time?” and end up with the answer being “I don’t know.”