There’s Something Out Of Balance

Day 283

Read “You’re Tougher Than You Think” for the background.

Spirit Card Messages for today:

“There’s something out of balance in your life.  Correct it.”

and

“You’re too fragmented.  Get grounded”

Every day, I pick two cards.  Today, I feel as though the second one explains the first one. After reading the first one, I instantly thought about the fact that I had not yet scheduled my flu shot!  Well, I did schedule and then I cancelled it because something came up with my grandchildren.  And then, I cancelled my dentist appointment because of a similar issue.  Now, I’m going to tell you that it takes basically nothing to get me to cancel these appointments.  I’m not a fan of either.

But, that’s not really the message today.  The message is that my life is out of balance because I am too fragmented.

Fragmented?  How can that be?  I have my routines:

  • Morning coffee while I check for new Facebook posts.
  • Second cup while I play a little Toy Blast on my IPad.
  • Then it’s time to review the news.  This takes longer these days because I have to figure out if what I’m reading is fake or not.
  • That usually takes me into internet searches which sometimes leads me to Amazon to see if there are any deals today on Prime.  One day, that lead me to buying a room air purifier hoping that would take care of my itchy eye situation.
  • And then, there’s Pinterest where I can definitely see my fragmentation.  Pins come up that deal with all things I’ve previously shown an interest in:  soup recipes, making pots out of concrete, refinishing old furniture, and toddler craft projects.

Fragmented?  Not me!

So How Does One Become Un-fragmented In Today’s World?

I actually just told my sister, last week, that I feel as though the older I get the faster days fly by.  And, at the end of the day, I look back and can’t actually say that I did anything big or important.  In fact, my daughter will ask “What are you doing today?” and I reply “I have an appointment to get my hair cut.”  and she responds, “You can only do one thing a day?”

No.  Yes.  I don’t know.  It just seems as though the other things that fill the day aren’t worth mentioning; you know, like detailing the scheduled IPad time.

But there was one day that I actually made a list of things that needed to be accomplished; that one day where I could actually say that I was not fragmented.  I had listed 8 things that needed to be worked on.  Then I gave each thing one hour of my time.  By the end of the day, some things were actually done.  I’d set a timer!  One hour per task. It was actually fun.

This Year’s Challenge

I proved to myself that I could fill my day with meaningful tasks, so can I do it for more than a day?

The first step is to probably figure out what it is that I want to accomplish, not just today, but maybe this week, this month, this year.

If I am to put balance back into my life, it would need a plan.  I’ve been retired for more than 8 years and I have yet to settle on a plan for what I want to accomplish.  I’ve let other people or situations lead me down whatever path.  I don’t want to reach the end of my journey only to be asked “What did you do with your time?” and end up with the answer being “I don’t know.”

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