These words pop into my head every single time I find myself in one of those places where I feel as though there is nothing more I can do.
I am a strong person. I try to take care of myself. But sometimes…
It’s Not Up To Me
Sometimes, there are no clear answers, no clear path. It’s at this moment when I take my hands off the steering wheel. You know the song “Jesus Take The Wheel“. Well that’s where I’m at right now. And, I know that I could have done this earlier. I don’t need to try to control everything so much. Things will turn out the way they are supposed to turn out.
I don’t believe that God intended for us to just lay back, throughout life, just waiting for divine intervention. We have a job to do. We have choices to make. This life is crafted by our choices. And so I have a choice right now but here’s the deal…my moves over the next few days are controlled by another. They’ve been controlled by another for a few weeks now…because I made a choice! Isn’t that interesting? How many times do we give our freedom to someone else to hold and then lament our lack of freedom, throwing our arms up in the air saying “There’s nothing I can do about it. It’s out of my control.”
NO DAMMIT! I always have a choice!
But Right Now, I Can’t Breathe
Right now, right at this moment, my stomach hurts. I have no words to form into a cohesive choice. Right now, I just need to close my eyes and let it go.
I need your help on this one God. I need your help. Show me the way. Give me the words to say. Help me make this choice.
And Before You Know It…
I will find myself on the other side. I will have survived! I didn’t die! I’ll be reflecting back at it all and thinking…everything turned out just the way it was supposed to.
God, you’re good at this. Thank you!